Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Pregnancy details, part 1; Deciding the right time.

Andrew and I have had this topic on our minds since the day I gave birth to baby Elliana. Although we never really sat down and talked about it in depth, we did mutually agree that "winter 2011" sounded like the ideal time to start trying.

Lets see how that timeline went.....

Fall 2011 came and went, and in the back of my head I hadn't really prepared myself for "trying" to have a baby. I just figured that I would be ready in a couple of months and that would be that.

And then winter came. Thanksgiving. Christmas. I said I was ready. We were ready. But it wasn't the truth. I just didn't think it was right... not just yet.

I wanted a few more months.

A few more months of no sickness. A few more months being a mama of just 1.
A few more months of just Elli and Me.

January came. I sat online and was browsing Amazon to buy Elliana a couple of things when at the bottom I noticed that a suggested item for me was "OPK and EPT tests."

Why, alrighty then, lets have a click here.

Click.

They were pink and blue strips. There were a lot of them. Lets say around the lines of 50. I think 40 Ovulation strips and 10 pink pregnancy strips.  But wait, amazon also suggested I purchase 10 EPT tests fo 10 dollars as well. Alrighty, why not. Add. To. My. Shopping. Cart. Please.

When they came, I stashed them away underneath the bathroom sink downstairs.

February. I'm ready. We're ready. Lets talk about it. We talked about. We said yes. Lets do it. However, we had a trip coming up in April. Our Chicago trip. So? We shall "wait."

March. I take my daily vitamins every day {okay, lies. As often as I could}. And I start testing out the blue strips. The ovulation test strips. The are we ready to do the dirty business strips.

Problem is I'm not diligent enough to do something at the same time every day. Just not. So it doesn't happen every day, and I'm pretty sure I'm supposed to be taking my temperature and all that other hoo-ha business?

But, I tell myself we aren't trying. We are just "not preventing" at this point. After all... we are going to wait until April right? But if it happened... it happened.

If that was the case, then why, on March 25th was I so completely devastated to have a visit from my "friend".

So thats that. Not pregnant. And I'm hurt. Sad actually. I knew the reality was that it just doesn't happen on the first month. And thats okay. And we JUST started throwing all preventative methods out the window.

Get yourself together Becky.
You said April anyway. Why are you so upset?

Because it is.
Because I am ready.


part II coming up....

27 comments:

  1. oh I love all these details. So much FUN! Can't wait to here the rest of the story! Congrats again!

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  2. Shame on you for making us wait for part 2 ..LOL!

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  3. Yay!! So happy for you!! Congrats to you and your beautiful family!

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  4. im the same way- i'm kinda ready but I keep putting things off for this reason or another!

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  5. Booo- I have to wait for part 2?!?!? ;) Just teasing, I love hearing all the exciting details- so happy for your precious fam!

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  6. I am so engulfed in this, part II soon please? Great post, and can't wait to read the rest!!

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  7. I can so relate at the moment. When you're ready you're just ready.

    I have a time frame too, but we'll just have to see if it works out like I have "planned" in my head.

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  8. Oh becky!! I'm so happy for you and your family!! Congrats! 2 is so much fun!

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  9. love the details!!! So excited and cant wait to hear the rest :) Congrats again!!

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  10. I am so, so happy for you guys- I was the same way. M and I "planned" to start trying AFTER the holidays, After all the traveling and crazy family madness. However sometimes? Things just don't go as planned.. And I got knocked up ON MY BIRTHDAY in September. Right. Happy 28th birthday to me! ;) HA! I can't wait to hear the rest of the details. Hoping that someone had other plans for you, as well.. Cannot WAIT to follow you along on this journey.. AGAIN!!!

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  11. I don't think it ever goes as planned!! AND CONGRATS :)

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  12. Can't wait to read part 2 and follow along with you during your pregnancy!

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  13. Can't wait to hear part deuce! I love how your personality shows in your writing. Feels like you are telling the story out loud and makes it very interesting. :)

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  14. I can't wait to read about part two! My little guy came as a surprise, so I don't really know what goes into planning for a baby.

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  15. I knew the second that I saw that fruit basket gift from Jody that you were knocked up!

    I'm so excited for you guys. Hang in there through this first trimester/early second - it's by far the hardest with those little toddlers!

    Can't wait to hear the rest of the details and follow along. xo

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  16. So fun to hear the details! My LO is only 3 months and we have been talking alot about when the 'right' time is. I'm afraid I just won't know!

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  17. congrats! can't wait to hear part 2!

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  18. Love this and feel like I could have written it myself...for real! We have a 2 1/2 yr old daughter and we had said that in Fall of 2011 we would "try" for baby #2...well, fall came and went and then winter came and went (kinda being selfish and wanting more time just being a family of 3 and not wanting things to change), then spring came and we decided to talk about it more seriously...decided on the month of May and I actually just found out this week that I am pregnant!
    Can't wait to read part 2!!! Congrats again!

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  19. Isn't it crazy how you can think you arent ready and then if you get a negative test or your period you somehow feel like you failed? I can't wait for part two!

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  20. Isn't it funny how we have OUR plans, but when the time comes, we're like, "Nooo...wait, wait, wait..." :)

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  21. The same thing happened when we were ready to get pregnant with Olivia. We decided in sept but didn't get pregnant until december on our delayed honeymoon. Everything happens for a reason right? :)

    Can't wait for part 2! So happy for you guys! :)

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  22. Oohh my husband and I are just starting to talk pregnancy and this is what I am nervous about!!

    Eeep!

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  23. I LOVE that you are sharing these details! I always wonder how people come to the decision to have Baby #1, let alone #2!

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  24. What wonderful details! I am so excited to follow along on this new adventure for your family. Such a beautiful post, such a wonderful mama!

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  25. We've been having the same discussion at our house...when to start trying...is it ever "the perfect time"? I feel like we should just take out the goalie and see if anything comes from it :)
    http://theaustinfamilydiary.blogspot.com/

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  26. I so get this!! We found out about #2 on March 24, but any month that passes without a positive and leads to disappointment means you are ready ready! Can't wait to read part 2.

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  27. Yay! So excited to read more! :)

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